Derailed

I haven’t posted on my blog in over two weeks.

It’s not because I’ve been too busy to sit down and write anything, and it’s not because I haven’t done anything exciting that’s worth blogging about.

The truth is that I actually have been pretty busy these last few days, and I’ve done some pretty fun and exciting things lately that I could have very easily written about. Here is where I think the problem lies:

Whenever I come up with an idea, I have this vision in my head of what the final product of that idea will be like, and that vision is what I set as my goal and what I try so hard to achieve. Somewhere deep down, I know that the initial vision of something is almost never what ends up happening in the end, and a lot of times that can be a great and positive thing. Though for whatever reason, if after some time something doesn’t turn out the way I pictured it, I tend to get distracted by my “failure” to the point where I feel completely unmotivated and uninspired to continue on. When I feel that way, it makes me just want to stop trying or quit completely.

I know I’m not the only person to have ever felt this way… but the feeling is rather awful. It’s like writer’s block but much worse because I’ve also managed to lose my purpose during this phase of being completely uninspired, and so I have no idea where to go from here.

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